Mungkir Bahagia Part II

yesterday (21.04.2005) was my last day as a Tricubes's staff. Justeru, bermula la hidup aku sebagai seorang pelajar.

this time, i dont want to talk about my cousin's nephews, tetapi nak cerita pasal hal aku sendiri.

after few consideration, i think it is better for me to stay 'single' rather than have a BF yang hari² memberikan tekanan! letih la..macam baru² ni, aku dah la sibuk dengan proposal, boleh plak dia buat perangai..nak kata B*****G, sekolah tinggi gak sampai overseas. apa la punya baghalnya (ha..kan dah kuar), tak paham ka aku ni dok bengong dengan proposal aku yg tak siap² lagi ni. jangan la tambah 'weng' kepala aku ni.

senang jer, kalo nak buat perangai, buat la..aku peduli apa, study aku lebih penting. ask me to say sorry to him, NEVER!! i repeat NEVER!!

lantaran itu, aku fikir biarlah aku jalani hidup macam² dulu..layan kawan² lagi bagus..

*p/s: ayu, saya sudah kembali single! hopefully, boleh kawan dengan awak, bart, misa and amilia contessa..:)

Mungkir Bahagia

have you ever heard this song? sing by Hazami. sedap jugak. this time, i want to talk about something related to the title jugak.

anyway, this week i am very busy writing my proposal. i am supposed to submit my proposal on 22.4, and on 19.4, i still have half of the required info need to write. kepala ni dah crammed memikirkan tentang ayat² yang ada Umph!(mengikut kemahuan mdm. Ariza) untuk dimuatkan dalam proposal aku ni.

ok, balik pada tajuk di atas..last week aku ada masalah keluarga. ni gara² kak sepupu aku bela anak² sedara dia yang kematian mak sebulan yang lalu. mak mertua dia (mak sedara aku) sangat² tidak bersetuju dengan idea dia. so, terjadilah conflict kat situ. mak sedara aku ni LASER habis ngan kak sepupu aku dengan besan dia sekali dia marah. tak patut betul la. yang harunya aku pula yang jadi tempat luahan perasaan. kesian aku tengok kak sepupu aku tu. dia cuma nak bela anak² sedara dia supaya budak² tu jadi Gemilang, Cemerlang dan Terbilang. tapi kena macam² dengan mak sedara aku ni merangkap mak mertua la.

boleh pulak mak sedara aku ni arahkan kakak sepupu aku ni bagi budak² tu dibela oleh anak dia kat Terengganu bulan Jun ni, sebab dia tak mau tengok budak² tu. Strict Order from Kol. Jeemilah bt Taib (nama mak sedara aku la..) dasat tul.

logik la skit, kalo korang semua la kan, ditakdirkan ada anak sedara korang sendiri yang kematian ayah@mak, dan tak de sesapa sedara mara yang mau bela depa semua tu. are you willing enough to ambik anak² sedara korang sendiri untuk dibela?? hanya dengan 1 tujuan, untuk jaga budak² tu dan besarkan budak² menjadi orang yang berguna pada masa depan..fikir² kan lah..

*p/s: budak² tu umur 13, 11 dan 6 tahun..

A birthday thought for a Wonderful Friend

Sometimes we are lucky enough
to meet a person
who stands out
among all the other people
as being extremely special
who knows what we
are thinking about
who is happy for us at all times
who is always there to talk to us
who cares about us selflessly
who is always truthful with us

Sometimes we are lucky enough
to meet someone who is
extremely wonderful
For me
that person
is you
my dear friend, Noraini Baharudin
Happy Birthday!

Mimpi Yang Sempurna

its been almost a week, i didnt update my blog. recently, i am busy with my assignment (warghhhhh!! i still not start writing my proposal).

still remember my previous post? about 'Smallville Boy'??this time i want to write about him. we are good 'friend' and recently our friendship seem likes to change as 'relationship' again. obviously, i am very happy because that is what i want. our friendship remains harmony and peace until today.

today, he started to talk about something more serious related to our relationship..apa lagi kalo bukan hal kawin² ni. seriously, i am happy but there is something deep inside my heart macam curious. i just want him to be happy when he decided to choose me as his wife kan, but am i good enough for him to make him happy? i dont want him regret when he marry me. waktu alam bercinta, semuanya nampak indah.kentut yang busuk pun, bau wangi. but after married, will you feel the same? everything (in and out) is revealed, and at that time, each of us will know strenghs and weaknesses of your partner. waktu tu baru nak menyesal etc.. i dont want this kind of problem happen to him because i know him very well. for me, he is deserved a very good woman (perhaps me la kan walaupun tidak). tak mahu dia tersalah pilih and end up dalam hidup dia PENYESALAN yang tak sudah.

i tried to explain to him about this, however, he had misunderstood about this. as usual, when we had 'nerve war' tu, he will not answer my phone, reply my sms, and reply Y!M. in my Y!M tu, i said to him 'we try so many times, but we always end up like this...' perkataan end up tu, dia anggap aku ni mintak break-off ngan dia..padahal what i am trying to say is 'kita ni selalunya baik² tapi selalu pengabih bergaduh dan salah faham'. he was totally salah faham ayat aku tu dan seperti yang dijangkakan memang dia tak angkat phone!

this guy memang obvious EGO nya. sebab after i explained to him, jangan kata 'sorry', apa pun dak! in fact, he didnt logoff his Y!M and let me send his pm to him. when i called, vmail will answer my call and when i sms, haram nak dibalasnya! c'mon la 'smallville boy'..you are totally misunderstood, terima la.aku bukan nya nak gelak pun! we can be a good couple (perhaps) kalo dia boleh terima kesalahan diri sendiri..

this sort of thing, buat aku lagi semak perut! dah la assignment banyak tak siap lagi..bukan nak bagi senang kerja aku..bagi lagi susah lagi ada..mana la aku tak pilih hidup sendiri dari 'berpasangan'.

letih la nak melayan kerenah manusia ni. i can feel that, every time we have 'nerve war', I AM THE ONE who will beralah and say sorry even i am INNOCENT! aku tak suka nak bergaduh lama² ni, sebab buang masa. tapi kalau dah selalu..sapa pun naik BENGANG gak kan??

What Does It Take (To Win Your LOVE)

after so many things happened to me for last few weeks, i found my way back. Alhamdulillah, all the sadness had gone and i am ready to face a new challenge!

finish my 1st chapter..ok, let's proceed to our 2nd chapter..

i have a very good friend whom i call him 'Smallville Boy'. this is because he is one of Smallville die-hard fan. we used to be a couple for almost 1 year. however, he decided to break-off just because of we hardly to meet each other and i never go to visit him in Johor. so, what can i say, just accept the decision wholeheartly. might be at that time, i have a very close friend..so tak terasa la sangat kan.(uish, belagak)

after we break-off, i've meet 2-3 'gorgeous' man (kononnya la) but all of them a very BIG FAT LIAR. at that time, my mind keep thinking about 'smallville boy'. seingat aku la kan, sepanjang hubungan kami ni memang la selalu ada salah faham but he never lie to me. in fact, he is so caring, loving and pandai ambik hati my family. tapi biasa la kan..belagak punya pasal..hati tengah panas..lantak la dia nak jadi apa pun. tapi bila time macam ni teringat kebaikan dia.he is very nice man.

our distance makes us hardly to meet and both of us are quite busy. aku ni pulak selalu jumpa orang jer kan, so i dont feel lonely even after we broke up. however, when i have been cheated 2-3 times, i realized that 'smallville boy' is a very good man. i actually a stupid woman who let him go just like that.

sekarang ni, aku tengah fikir what should i do just to win his love back! it is not easy to find a good man whom is sincere, and honest to love you! aiyak..now, i can feel my stupidity to let him go. sekarang ni tak pe la, dia tak jumpa lagi new girlfriend tapi nanti dia dah jumpa..melepas aku!

we frequently sms and chat via Y!M. i can feel the 'feel' but im not sure whether he is still like before or not. what should i do to win his heart back to me???

Leaving on The Jet Plane Part II

thanks aini for the inspirational poem. actually, i'm not a person who like to take risk but after careful consideration, i think this is my best decision. this is the best opportunity i have to broaden my horizon.

to all my friends, thanks for your full support dan doakan kejayaan saya..