Schizophrenia Part I

sem iv will be ended on 22.10, however, i need to submit my assignment on 15.10 (submit awal for any changes boleh buat lain and final submission will be on 22.10). dah 3 minggu aku tidur awal pagi (orang lain bangun tidur nak sahur aku baru nak tidur, tapi aku tetap tak sahur gak). tapi itu bukan kisah yang aku nak cerita. tapi pasal groupmate aku utk subject yang aku ambik (multimedia technology).

untuk kelas ni aku kena buat 1 multimedia project by GROUP. so aku ada join ngan 2 org 'kak' (since they are married). tak pernah kenal dorang ni..inilah kali pertama aku kenal dengan kakak tu. kelas tu mmg ok since lecturer aku tak fussy sgt.

at first, aku ngan groupmates aku ok..but towards the end, project tu masih tak siap. but one of them dapat 1 project dari kawannya dari UKM buat benda yg sama and we are planning to use their project. tapi we found a problem where source code benda alah tu tak bleh nak baca and we cannot edit the program.

then, kak tu sent me an email telling me that ada sorang budak tu nak buat project tu utk kami semua just WITHIN 1 WEEK. she asked me an opinion, and i gave her my opinion. i just said 'kita kesuntukan masa. nak kena cari bahan ambik masa and nak buat benda tu pun ambik masa, report kena submit. sempat ka? or kita nak ambik saja project kawan kak tu but kena crack la source code tu'

however, i am very frustrated when the kakak replied my email by saying this:

'excuse me.. senang nye awak tanya gitu yea?? awak pun nape tak cari org klu awak takleh buat.. awak nak suruh budak tu buat sume?? pls lh,, budak tu tak psl2 susah diri tolong kite tau.. dia tak mintak pape pun.. dahlh time2 nak raye ni.. org tgh sibuk nak raye,, kite mintak tolong dia buat keje kite lak.. pk lh,, tak semestinye kite kene anta 1510 ni.. at least klu budak tu dpt siapkn minggu ni.. boleh lah, buat rpt minggu depan.. tolonglah.. at least, saya ada inisiatif saya mcmane nak solve problem ni?? awak?? kenape baru skrg awak nak sedar yg kite ade bbrp hari je lg.. before ni awak tak kira ke?? ade awak bincang pape ng kitorg.. awak jgn ingat saya ng k fizah tak buat pape psl projek ni.. actually, kitorg dah cari source before ni lg.. awak tu aje yg kitorg tak tau pape.. skrg ni,, awak senang2 plak cakap mcm ni.. kite ni satu group tau.. so, sama2 kene pk.. jgn nak harap org lain je.. awak ng kitorg satu level je tau.. sorry to say lah.. awak ni sbnrnye buat diri awak tu mcm boss plak kat kitorg ni.. pls, nobody boss here.. we all have our own responsibility.. everything must have solution to solve the problem.. maybe awak tak berniat,, tp cara awak.. Then, saya ng k fizah dah decide amik yg budak ni buat.. terpulang ng awak nak joint atau tak?? klu hasil tak menepati citarasa pun.. kitorng amik je,, klu tak jadi amik pun,, rasenye mmg nak bayar skit kat budak ni.. so, terpulang lah,, sempat tak sempat pun mmg awak kene buat storyboard tu, sy ng k fizah buat presentation slide.. klu awak nak tarik diri, info awal2.. nnt sy nak arrange keje ng k fizah lak.. anyway, sorry, just want to let u know our internal problem.. thanks..'

it has been almost 2 years saya study kat UiTM and i NEVER face this kind of problem with my groupmates. tapi this year, memang catat sejarah la.for me, her email was too harsh for me. tapi sebab bulan puasa i dont want to make any trouble and i just replied to her;

'kalo mcm tu kata kak.. saya ikut jer. saya akan buat story board tu..15.10 saya submit. mcm mana nak submit kat budak nak buat tu? dia nak tahu kiter nyer story board mcm mana? since saya buat hardcopy.so, kita keep on doing tourism montage ya. ok..i'll proceed with i have now. this weekend saya bgi. im really sorry for being troublesome person for you gurls. let's work as a team.im really sorry, kak.thanks for your sincere advise. i am really appreciate that.'

frustrated, tensed, disspointed semua ada. tapi aku tahu time mcm ni i dont have time to think about them. i just want to focus on my individual assessments. LIFE is GOES ON and i always believe that I AM IN THE STAGE OF LEARNING.